Nonsense! Sleep is healing. It's hugely important.

My problem with getting the shots:

1. Limited choice of meds. With pills you have more options and can try different medications if the current one isn't good for you.

2. I'm really afraid that once they have that med in you, they won't be interested in getting you talk therapy. And that's what you really need, newtus. You need other people to connect with if you're going to heal. You're too isolated. Even a therapist and a case manager would be a good start.

If you're going to agree to the shots, you might as well take the pills IMO. There are other ways of forcing compliance than shots. Can you negotiate for some kind of monitoring? Having someone watch you take the pills and/or using a disc melt form?