Thankyou guys for your support i will take all of your advice into considerationa nd poneder it. I have a T and she helps me but i feel therapy only goes so far and i only have a few sessions lect and im scarred to be without her and my school C. Idk i seem to make the same mistakes although i am trying to get better. I cried for the first time in months yesterday and it made me feel out of control but have that being said, i feel better and that i let some it out. Even if it was at the expense of being screamed at by my parents.. i couldent talk isat there and cried.