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Thank You for your reply PyschiatricEnigma. I am really sorry you are having a hard time with your parents. You should give yourself some credit for actually putting things into action. All I ever done from 2008 after doing one term of college to beginning of 2009 was get the prospectus each year and obsess about what courses I could do but never brought myself to actually do anything about it. When you applied ok it didn’t go as you want it to but that’s never a waste. People keep telling me this; even if you think you failed at something really it’s never a waste. I am not saying that’s the impression I got from you or that’s what happen for you, as you didn’t fail. You can always take something from things whether it’s how not to do things next time or finding out that actually you are not suited to this or it’s really not something for you. So you are then able to better understand yourself form what may seem like set back. I hope things work out for you in mean time. Taking it you mean you are reapplying for the course you wanted to do for September 2013 instead of the September coming up. Did the college advise you on other courses you could do instead and may be still get the points you need for university? Would it be possible for you when you do the course to live in hall of residence?
Although I am 19 at moment I would be 20 by this September (arr so old or that’s how it seems/ feels for myself) I really should have by now finished or near finishing university if I followed all my other peers from leaving school in 2008. I don’t really have a plan to go to university. I only really wanted to go back to college so I can lessen the stress of finding near enough full time work. I just had an interview for weekend work and well my interview picked up on my anxiety and out right asked me how I honestly expected to work there at weekend and cope. So I said I was sorry and hope she didn’t mind that I went for the interview but couldn’t take it further. Luckily she was ok about it but that doesn’t help me. So I was hoping college would take the pressure off and enable me to learn something that has interest to me as well. May be this would help me lessen the anxiety and get some more confidence in that environment instead of working environment. Working has so far wiped away what little confidence I had left. However of course doing A levels doesn’t necessarily help me in regards to bettering my chances of employment. However it always leaves the door open for higher education in future if I get good grades. Maybe if I did get to doing A levels I would have a better idea once started them as to whether carrying on in education is the route for me. To be honesty I have no idea if I will apply for this September of next although I would ideally like to go back this year as it would help get my brain thinking about other things. I don’t have any idea really as to if things will still be the same next month or if things will finally start to get back on right track. I wish I was able to say, this will happen on this day like this and then that happen on so and so day. If only life was as simple as that lol. Only time will tell. Thank You once again and wish you all the best.
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