Me and my ex broke up last year. I'm still not over her. Not by a long shot. She was pretty cruel to me, but I still love her very much. I can't stop thinking about her. I just can't understand how she can move on so quickly and I'm standing here in the dust...grieving over her. I always want to cut when I think of her. Why can't I just stop thinking of her? It doesn't matter to me how bad she hurt me. Part of me wants her back, but the wiser part of me knows it would be bad if we ever got together again.

I just want to stop hurting again...and want to move on. I don't know why I'm so stuck on her. My heart aches for what we had...in the beginning. Sometimes I think I'll always hurt this bad, and boy is it bad, but somewhere I know it won't last forever. I just wish that time would hurry up and get here...fast!

There are so many songs that remind me of her. I can't listen to anything on the radio or in my own collection of music...it seems like they're all about her. I look at my stuff, and there's a memory of her when I look at these things. I just can't handle it!

Ok, I'm done venting...