i would LOVE to.
but i have so much trouble in school. too much to tell.
but its shown i cant do it.
i began studying filmmaking. tried to get a filmmaking degree.
didnt even begin my basics really. i just..couldnt keep up. failed.
it starts as far back as junior high though.

just a huge mess i wish was taken more seriously.
i dont now so much but i asked for tons of help as a teen. everywhere. i started having paranoia/hallucininations and focus issues then. i was ignored. by teachers/counselors/parents/psychiatrists, etc. seriously. thats when i gave up but then i learned about psychiatry and grew to despise it. didnt like it then but whatever.

im just POd about that almost everyday of my life.
because i know if people would have helped me. anyone. and LISTENED TO ME. instead of judging me. i could have made higher school grades and done college better. everything got ****ed up because i was called lazy. but then they later said no i wasnt lazy. and all this stuff.

i just said f**k it. i missed the marks i was supposed to hit in my personal milestones. f**ked everything up. thats my one biggest regret is school. but F**K it. yea thats right.