I don't know where to start, or even if i should. I don't feel as if i deserve to write here when i read some of the hells that others are going through. I feel as if i'm just writing in here in order to try and fit in. But i don't belong, i'm different somehow. I think i'm happy, yet i still feel as if i'm trapped and need to escape. I don't feel as bad as i have done, but it is so different from before, i just need to collapse in on myself every-so-often.
I know everyone feels bad and sometimes like hell on earth so why does this not make things easier? Why don't i feel normal because of this? i feel as if i'm on the outside looking in at everyone even those that are depressed. I don't belong anywhere - i'm seperate.
I understand but don't comprehend. I can't say to myself look around you and see how fortuate you are in comparison.
I'm tired. I'm just not entirely sure what of.
I can't explain so prehaps i shouldn't even try.
Abby