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Originally Posted by newtus
i would LOVE to.
but i have so much trouble in school. too much to tell.
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but its shown i cant do it.
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Untrue. It's show you haven't been able to do it
so far. If you WANT to go back to school, then let's find out what you need to get back there - in terms of support, treatment, upgrading classes, whatever. We can help on here, and I know there are people to help in real life but you have to look really really hard sometimes.
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Originally Posted by newtus
i began studying filmmaking. tried to get a filmmaking degree.
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That's awesome! You must be so creative. You mentioned drawing and drumming also. Do you ever make films sometimes?
I'm always a bit jealous of creative people
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Originally Posted by newtus
just a huge mess i wish was taken more seriously.
i dont now so much but i asked for tons of help as a teen. everywhere. i started having paranoia/hallucininations and focus issues then. i was ignored. by teachers/counselors/parents/psychiatrists, etc. seriously. thats when i gave up but then i learned about psychiatry and grew to despise it. didnt like it then but whatever.
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I'm sorry people treated you that way. I think sometimes people navel-gaze so much, they act callously without realising how much pain others are in.
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im just POd about that almost everyday of my life.
because i know if people would have helped me. anyone. and LISTENED TO ME. instead of judging me. i could have made higher school grades and done college better. everything got ****ed up because i was called lazy. but then they later said no i wasnt lazy. and all this stuff.
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I think the key thing is to not feel like all is lost. I know that's really bloody difficult. But hun, no matter how **** people treat you or how much **** has come before, you have to think it's possible to change or nothing
will change. If you don't like what is the case right now, then don't accept it. Just because something
is the case doesn't mean it
ought to be the case.
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Originally Posted by newtus
i just said f**k it. i missed the marks i was supposed to hit in my personal milestones. f**ked everything up. thats my one biggest regret is school. but F**K it. yea thats right.
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**** it indeed!
Do you know how ****ed up my law degree was? It took me six years to get; it's supposed to take three. The first four years I was on the psych drugs and in and out of hospital, and that just ****ed up everything. I failed so many things. I got a marginal pass in criminal law because I (literally) fell asleep halfway through the exam. I had to repeat one course FOUR YEARS IN A ROW. But then I started taking care of myself right and it gradually started to improve.
I think the thing to take away from that is that it's never too late, k? It might take a long time to get there, but
it's never too late.