Cuz maybe i dont wanna sound desperate or need help- i dunno, im not sure. Maybe i feel like if he didnt deal with it he doesnt think its imp so i dont make it known to him that it is. Or maybe its about control. I dont know but i do know that im not contacting him. Hes also not aware that i attempted suicide 3 times- he never asked and i dont offer info. My friend told me i look so much better but she doesnt know that all i think about is suicide and i do drugs and stuff, or that my sanity shrank a lot. I look depresed and all.But everyone is ignoring it. Some ppl just dont wanna mess w me. My cuts are getting worse and worse, the blood the writing. But i feel hopeless, sorthless no point in trying to help/ save myself. My parents are not aware anything is wrong and at first they refused to let
Me go on meds if needed. Whatever.