I have a very brief elated period of hypomania before i go off the deep end into mixed manic episode. Otherwise no elation no eurphoria an almost purely negative opposite from my anhedonic depressions is an uncontrollable overwhelming emotional state of agitation. My behaviour is unpredictable, homicidally violent with erratic impulses to take suicidal action. I am told i smile while crying and hysterically laugh about self mutilation or killing myself before psychosis starts to set in.

This liable affect of ups and downs
Happiness on a face that frowns
Sudden loud outbursts of rage
Over nothing that can be explained
My temperment is as far from settled
Violently highy volatile and irritable
Irrational and withdrawn
Racing thoughts, my minds a storm
Not the safest person to be around
When i start searching the corners of a round