Got to see my T today. He has been out all week working with others "on site" . T made a point to see some clients today and I was one of them.

This week has been a test for me because last week we did EMDR work and T instilled some positive things for me. Basically he is really pushing me to have the grown up part of myself start taking care of the younger part of my heart. It was tough for me to realize what T was trying to get me to do, but I went with it and have spent this week trying very hard to hold onto my mature wise-mind self.

And I was able to do it!!!

It was sad today after session because I felt like I left being awake. I know that I am finally recovering from my breakdown 3 yrs ago. July 1 will mark 3 yrs of being with my T for 1-3x week. A whole lot of pain and a whole lot of tears. But when I left today, I left feeling like I was the one in charge of my healing at the deepest level.

My T did it. He taught me how to be a good parent to myself. Now to just keep on walking this new road one step at a time.