I'm toying with an idea. I am thirty, fairly healthy and 18 months after stopping seroquel I still have tachycardia and now my heart is skipping a beat. And something, probably the beta blockers is making it impossible to lose weight.

On top of which I think I may be more towards the cyclothemia idea of bipolarity. And after getting this heart thing straightened out I'm thinking of going off at least some of my five medications. I'm back with my childhood therapist (in other words someone very committed and trusted) who is very available.

I'm not currently working and while I am under a lot of stress i think I'm thirty and fifteen years of medication is already taking a significant toll on my body. On top of which I want to have a baby and I would rather be taking as few chemicals as possible if that happens and I want a test run of what will happen if I go off of meds.

I'm thinking that in addition to my prescribing primary physician, my super available therapist I'm going to add the medication-specializing psychiatrist recommended my therapist and see what happens if I'm not taking all this stuff. Since being diagnosed I have definitely had countless moments of poor judgement but I have never not taken my medication so this isn't something particularly tempting, in fact it's terrifying. Has anyone else tried what I am calling "a controlled burn"?