I agree!!!U are right eskielover , I am totally bad and need to give up, I not worth the effort after 23 years I get that always my fault I am terrible a drunk and so on.I trying to hold on to what I have built but obviously!!!! I have made to many mistakes in 23 years,I get that I want to please but at my age lol wow I have older kids.I tried I really think my wife is over me and wants me out ,I was told from a friend to get a disalostion.