thanks so much, to everyone for the love and support.

bill got a job offer from NO, on Friday, but he would be displacing a NO resident. he said he could never do that. i agree with him. if it were a new position, that would be okay. his background is much stronger than the other employee, but what a slap in the face for someone who just lost everything they owned......no way....so, we've dealt with that.

my house in Texas is sooooo cute. the landlord put beadboard in the kitchen and it looks like a totally new room. i had been a bit dismayed by that room.....he added two new windows and a new gas stove. i was blown away when i walked in.

the trip was okay. stella did really well going down there. BUt, my daughter and her two children came back with us and i thought i was going to have a breakdown. first one would cry and then sleep. then another would cry and then sleep........... we were laughing about xanax all the way back......for the kids.

someone pointed out that bill has helped me healthwise. he certainly has and i don't think i've thought about that enough. i couldn't sleep one night recently and e.mailed him at 2 a.m.......i received an e.mail back immediately. he had suddenly awakened and checked the computer.

he's very intuitive about my moods and ills. we're just intuitive about each other.(you gotta love a man who would propose to someone who's username was "weezilgirl" on a literary message board and especially since he was in Malaysia and i was in Oklahoma)

i was worried about him, the job problem, and i wrote him a long letter one night. he said that i hit the nail on the head about every single thing that was worrying him.. and that made it all okay........we're pretty connected..........and i know that i could never find another man who loves music as much as i do. i've been wanting to play the mandolin and guess what i got via UPS on Thursday?

something will work out......xoxoxo pat