Yes, sometimes when I think too much. I will drive myself to tears and maybe I am listening to music and there's something that impacts me about the song, sometimes I cannot stop crying and feeling so hateful toward myself. It's a mass on top of something that's already about to blow... I don't ever cry in front of anyone. I try very hard not to. I mainly look emotionless or I might smile to be polite.

I can't imagine your situation, Cypress Dreams. I know it's a personal battle for all of us and I have missed having someone to talk to when I feel this low, which for me personally has been for a little while and I have been trying to deal with it on my own.