I had it made clear no matter how much someone said they liked me whether made them smile and laugh. Wanting me around, enjoys my company, considers me there best friend, tells me they imagine spending rest of there life with me, it was never true or meant anything. I was just a joke. Laughed at for thinking i was ever going to be seen as more than a friend. Just because they told me and showed me? How wrong i got it each time, yes pathetic enough to let it happen everytime.
Having feelings that another could reciprcate, was stupid.
Believing one day i might experience companionship, i was obviously a delusional.
If i want someone to prend they care but treat me like **** i could see my family.
Have learnt where i belong and what happens if forget it.