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Originally Posted by newtus
im actually just gonna try to forget everything that happened. and start by going to the grocery store.
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Good idea. Distracting yourself can help. Being around other people can help. Getting out of the house can help.
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anyway. i mean the more i can learn to live rough the more i can handle certain life situations.
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I don't know about living rough, but definitely building up your skills and personal resources can help.
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ahah tolerated...
my dad almost kicked me out last night.
im sparing the details. but yea.
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Yes, tolerated. He may not have handled everything exactly right last night, but he's still there for you and you're still in his home. He
didn't kick you out.
I think I can imagine what your dad is going through. I've walked in his shoes. Right now I imagine he's frustrated and he's scared. You were in the hospital. You came out with some meds that were making you calmer and more rational. You abused the "fun" drugs and flushed the Haldol down the toilet. Now you're not sleeping, and no one else gets to sleep either.
Newtus, if you don't like the meds, you need to find alternatives.
You need to do that, because the mental health system probably won't. In the meantime, you need to make use of the tools available to you in order to keep your head together and start moving forward.
Just flushing the pills isn't enough. Not if it's going to result in scenes like the one last night.
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idk. but hes being a hypocrite. he drinks.
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Yes, he's not taking good care of himself either. That doesn't justify you doing the same. You're smarter than this.
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it stresses me out. but i admitted i stress him.
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Yes, when we don't take care of ourselves, we make the people who care about us suffer.
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but he wont admit he does that to me. because
his drinking. he thinks me finding him dead
is not stressful?
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Why does he have to admit anything? Why do you use his bad behavior to excuse yours? We have no control over other people. We only have any control over ourselves. The fact that other people don't live well or won't admit their part in the problem does
not mean we don't have to clean up our own act.
I'm speaking from experience here, newtus. The voice of experience. I spent countless hours and much money trying to "fix" my adopted son. Nothing changed until I decided to focus on myself.
Eat right. Get as much sleep as you can. Distract yourself from unwholesome thoughts. Exercise. Keep those appointments at the cmhc and work with the professionals on your treatment plan. Start researching mental health alternatives and wellness practices. Things will improve. They'll never be perfect, that's too much to ask for. But they can be much better than they are now.
