please don't feel bad. you are making really good use of your therapy time. it sounded like you were making real progress yesterday putting stuff together. sometimes T's don't really get what all is going on.

I finally asked my T, don't I ever get to grieve? Everytime I would say something that kind of put me in a bad light, he would quick say, but NOW it can be different. For example, and this is kind of silly, but it's a perfect example. Last year I asked him to be my swim coach. He said, if you can stand to put your face in the water, blow bubbles. I thought to myself, forget it, if the first thing you're gonna tell me is to put my face in the water! So this week we were talking about romantic transference, and I said, "I updated your slogan: you can be my therapist, OR you can be my boyfriend. But you can't be my swim coach because you tell me to put my face in the water!" He rose up in his chair and said I misunderstood! Finally he convinced me when I realized - he probably doesn't put HIS face in the water cos he doesn't want to mess up his precious blow-dried hair!
So I was trying to grieve, that for a whole year, I had misunderstood this - so what else do I think I am SO right about, yet I am so wrong? And he just tried to hurry over it. Actually I didn't even get to THAT generalization! It was just about hearing him. And he was like, it's okay, it's not happening now.

Wow he's messed up. Of course it's happening now, and will again. He said he just tries to have a positive attitude in doing therapy. I told him he doesn't let me (or any of his clients) grieve because his dead mother is always in the room. He said he would think on it.

Anyway, my point was, sometimes we have to teach our T's how to better help us. It still bothers me that all she said was, you're so sad, when you were doing all this great WORK, making all these connections between your parts and your experiences, integrating right in front of her eyes, and she was clueless?