I've been battling depression for a long time and it always seems to be triggered (or made worse) by stressful events.

In a year's time, I had myself feeling great. Excited to greet life everyday with a smile and to continue to grow. But, I changed job locations back in October and the constant exposure to negative people and negative experiences slowly chipped away at my own happiness and contentedness. Unfortunately, this fed over to my personal life (which I didn't realize), and now I have lost a friend over it. This friendship means so much to me and was part of the reason I began feeling so well to begin with. Now, I feel like I am in a tailspin into despair. It's been a week since my friend and I talked and he was so angry with me. I am completely distraught over this loss. Even though we were just friends, I feel like it's a break-up. I truly cared for this person and I thought he cared for me enough to stand by me. I am so hurt and confused. I'm having a hard time letting go and now I feel like I am sinking deeper and deeper. I feel abandoned and alone and like I will never be able to beat this disease. I keep hoping it will just pass with a little time, but I just don't know.

These types of stressful life experiences are killing me. I just want to hide away or sleep forever. I am forcing myself to get out and do things and it helps temporarily, but my thoughts are consumed by this loss.