((soup)) good to see you back. I'm so sorry you are going through this right now and for your loss, I wish I had words to help. I am here if ever you need a listening ear.

I am going through something slightly similar with my T, I feel toxic and that it might rub off, sometimes T holds my hand and I wonder if after I leave the hand gel comes out in a desperate attempt to get me off them.

I just wanted you to know you aren't alone. You're in my thoughts