I think you see the world through your own filter - like all of us do. And your filter tells you the world is threatening and scary and dangerous. So everything you see, you give it a menacing overtone.

Yesterday I was so upset. My son picked up on it - of course. And it roused his fear monster. I was fixing dinner, and he was sitting there, and suddenly he said, "Something bad might happen."

That had nothing to do with reality. That was his fear filter kicking in. You have a pretty heavy fear filter too, newtus, and it's screwing with your perceptions.