Yesterday & today I'm actually feeling a glimpse of who I used to be... My eyes are actually kind of welling up because I've been waiting for this for so ****ing long. The motivation to do ****, intellectual fascinations are coming back, I'm writing poetry. Whatever it is -- be it hypomania or a sign that things are going well, I'll ****ing take it. Granted I wrote ( & subsequently deleted ) some nonsense **** in the forums last night & my "not giving a **** about anyone" meter has resumed being high. But at least I have better coping strategies with the latter. It's easier to feign compassion than sanity.