((soup)) I am so sorry for your loss and the way you are feeling, it is still very raw for you and will be for a while. Don't push us away, post as long as it helps, we are here for you and we care. Your T does too, he wouldn't arrange extra sessions if he thought you were a burden, I really do understand why you feel that way, but it sounds like you need him more than ever. Let him (and us) share this with you to make it more bearable