Music means different things at times, the same music. Maybe because most of my favorite songs are ironic or bipolar themselves.

As for alcohol, definitely done that! I've self medicated a plenty, there were periods where I was drunk, stoned or high or some combination everyday. Oddly never got addicted and have since lost interest for the most part. It is strange how some people become addicts while others don't.

I used to say it was the bipolar, my moods don't have the attention span to develop an addiction but, since learned lots with bipolar struggle with addiction.