This thing is plaguing me. I told my T, but I wasn't able to be very clear or coherent about it...just spitting out bits and pieces. I felt relieved right after T, but now several days later it is banging around in my head. At one point T asked me if I thought I seduced the guy. This one question is freaking me out. I have never been the hot girl or the sexy girl...I couldn't seduce a guy if I tried. But why would he think that?? Does he think I am that type of woman? I mean I dressy in baggy layers, never show skin or anything. Why would he think I seduced the guy? Maybe he didn't believe me when I told him I was just afraid to say no? If he thinks that then what does he think about the CSA?? I haven't talked about it yet but he knows it happened. Will he think I seduced my father too?

I thought talking would make it better...but I feel way worse. I don't want to face T again.