yes, there are 1000's of reasons why i haven't heard from her, but the one i keep going back to is: i'm not important. it's hard to feel like i matter to her, when she's not acknowledging me at all! i'm not sure why exactly this is bothering me so much, but it really is. i've not had any issues with her, and we've had maybe like one or two mini-ruptures in the last 3 1/2 years. for some reason, this makes me want to quit seeing her altogether. i love her more than most people (and am usually one of those people that think i have "the world's greatest therapist"), but i feel like i can't trust her now.

(yes, i know i'm overreacting, but it's how i'm feeling at the moment.)