You have my fullest empathy. I was raised to fill the submissive role of daughter/sister/wife. When I found myself wanting another female, I saw how much it pained society and my family for me to not fulfill their expectations. When I again found my faith going against how I was raised, I saw again the wrath against people who had a mind of their own.

I sense you are a strong person. You get to decide what is right for you. Not because anyone else said to do it. But because you decide it is the right thing you want to do. YOU are the boss of YOU.