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Originally Posted by seventyeight
yes, there are 1000's of reasons why i haven't heard from her, but the one i keep going back to is: i'm not important. it's hard to feel like i matter to her, when she's not acknowledging me at all! i'm not sure why exactly this is bothering me so much, but it really is. i've not had any issues with her, and we've had maybe like one or two mini-ruptures in the last 3 1/2 years. for some reason, this makes me want to quit seeing her altogether. i love her more than most people (and am usually one of those people that think i have "the world's greatest therapist"), but i feel like i can't trust her now.
(yes, i know i'm overreacting, but it's how i'm feeling at the moment.)
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I can really relate to the feelings you have.. I used to swim in those feelings! All I can tell you is to hang in there. Your feelings are very real, but they are not based on anything your therapist is doing.. your feelings are based on painfully devaluing experiences from the past. If you just hang in there, though, your therapist will help you get through it and the repairs will bring you healing.