I'm so sorry for your loss. Grief comes in its own way, on its own time. My mother died about a month ago and if there's one thing I've learned since then is that I just cannot predict when I'm going to cry and when I'm not. I often stay dry-eyed in situations where I would totally expect to be bawling. And then I start crying at a completely random time. That you didn't cry with your T is very natural and nothing to be concerned about.

I think I understand what you mean about the moment of death. I was there when my mother died and it was surreal. One moment she was there and the next she was gone. Just like that. No drama, just one last breath.

I'm also working through some old, difficult feelings about my relationship with my mother. It makes the grieving even more complicated. Be gentle with yourself and please do take your T up on that session.