This post resonates immensely with me. Thank you for posting it. I can't tell you on how many occasions I have felt maybe something of insignificance to the world felt inside like it could completely destroy me because I was missing it beyond comprehensible reason or it was something minor done (not even on purpose, perhaps) that I took terrible offense to, regardless of how big a deal it actually was if I think about it. Sorry i am being so general. I feel upset with myself when I do this same thing. I tend to immediately demand I stop feeling like I do, that it's silly of me. I truly don't believe experiencing emotional distress in losing a valuable mental well being resource through no fault of your own is something to chastise yourself about at all. You form attachments and to have those suddenly severed no notice can be devastating. I know it's not much coming from me, but I send you a hug and wish you well in coping. I hope you can find some added comfort here. Hang in there.