When i leave i get up on the buses and start thinking, that usually takes an hour. Then when i get home i almost immiditly lay down and continue thinking about the last meeting, then i dream about something related to our meetings then i wake up and start thinking about the same right away. In the last 5 days i had 1 hour in total where i was able to pay attention to something else. I watched a video, and i talked to someone about something else, very funny.