Hi everyone,

I just joined this forum, I'm not really sure why yet, to be honest...I guess I just really want to talk to somebody or something. Anyway, I'm pretty sure I'm going through a period of depression, and I can't really tell when it started but it definitely got worse in the past month, and I think it might be due to a huge love disappointement. I know it sounds kind of stupid when it's said like this, but I was depressed before and I'm depressed again now that this thing's over. And the worst part is that I think that in order to feel better again I should really let it out and talk to someone, but I can't because I can't share what happened with the people I know since it involves cheating and some of my closest friends.

Also, although this might be what triggered my latest state of depression, it's not the only thing that makes me feel hopeless in my life.

I get through huge mood swings, usually several times a day, and I can't concentrate or finish long term projects, because I just don't feel motivated enough to do anything at all. Sometimes I'm a little scared of myself because I feel really violent, and even though I'm pretty sure I would never hurt someone I just don't know how to get rid of all the frustration that keeps cumulating. For instance, a couple of days ago I was having a little argument with a woman I don't know because of a parking spot, and suddenly I just lost it and started shouting at her so loud that people came to their windows to check what was going on, and I'm pretty sure I really scared her, even though I had no intention of hurting her or anything like that.

Everything I do feels like a waste of time and I don't know how to get rid of these feelings I have inside. I exercise a little, three times a week, and that helps, but I feel that's not really the answer.

I would really like to get some advice or to simply share my experience with someone...thanks