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When taken at its face value, the dream may seem quite scary but it is not really talking about you committing suicide in a physical sense.
The dream scene indicates that you appear to have some reason – some cause – to be extremely angry at certain aspects of yourself which are here represented by your husband and daughter. Your husband, being male, represents your mind and its way of thinking while your daughter represents an emotional aspect of yourself. As she may be young in this scene, she would represent feelings about yourself that are quite innocent and on second thought this innocent aspect of yourself probably was not, and should not, be the object of your anger. Yet you are separating yourself from a feeling of innocence (locked daughter out) and seeing this as a truthful option (a glass door)
Going into the bathroom can suggest going to use a point of view in which to acknowledge some sin or guilt. Since you have referred to this bathroom as your “spare” bathroom, it seems to imply that in your mind you have room to spare for acknowledging guilt; that there is more than enough space or place for expressing feelings of guilt.
The scene suggests a situation in which you have encountered a problem with your way of thinking (represented by being angry with your husband) your reaction or response is to head for the bathroom, i.e. you gravitate towards expressing guilt. You would be doing yourself a good turn to “face” your way of thinking (turn to face your husband) – face the facts about your way of thinking - but your way of dealing with your way of thinking appears suicidal, i.e. very detrimental to your well being.
You take a shot at your head – implying that you aim some powerful criticism at the logic you are using, but when the criticism is done with a gun, your emotional nature (represented by the body) cannot stand up against it. While you are directing your anger at the head or mind and its logic, the main victim here is your own body or emotional nature. [As you mentioned, whether you have forgotten something or made a simple mistake, your reaction is to feel guilty. Your emotional nature with its inclination to feel guilt has become the object of your anger. {as in “why do I always feel guilty?” } The blame has fallen on your emotional nature which the daughter in the scene shows does not deserve it. There is nothing wrong with you on an emotional level. Every thought elicits its own emotional response. The logic that your mind is giving you tells you that every kind of error is a crime and thus must be emotionally responded to with a feeling of guilt. It is this way of thinking that needs to be your object of criticism.
[In your case the pendulum has swung completely into the area of feeling guilty. To bring about some moderation in your reactions, it might be helpful to you to first swing to the very opposite feeling, that of feeling innocent, not guilty of any wrong doing. To accomplish this, what you might try is to look at every deed that normally would have you thinking you have committed a crime thus eliciting a feeling of guilt - but look at it in terms of the Ten Commandments. There we find the basic deeds for which God – the only real judge – would find you guilty when committing them. Does the act you committed fall under these ten basic rules? If not, you have no cause for feeling guilty. If you apply this idea or way of thinking every time you start to feel guilty about something, your mind should soon cease conveying every misdeed as a crime. A bit extreme, I know, but it may be necessary to break an old pattern of thinking.]
The fact that you did just think about the suicide attempt of your husband’s mother, may have prompted this dream because that event provides a reality factor to the idea of having a mind (personified by your husband) governed by a belief system (represented by his mother) that can be self destructive - one that makes the slightest error seem like a horrible crime.
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