You are all wonderful, thank you so much. I'm so low today, I don't know what to do. I keep busy, because I must...2 houses 50 miles apart to care for. The only interaction I have is more hurt and abuse. I've been struggling for 20 years to find the time and space to heal and it just gets worse year by year. All I feel like doing is crying and screaming. If it weren't for you, open Eyes and the others, I'm sure I wouldn't be alive today.