I have this running list of things I need to change about myself. Right now, it has 150 things on it . . . I don't normally tell people about my list because it sounds mad. I dunno, I'm obsessed with it though. I'm hung up on a lot of the things and 150 things to change is a huge undertaking. A lot of them are very drastic changes and will cost a large amount of money to fulfil (several cosmetic surgeries, for example). Some of them are never likely to happen (have diagnosis rescinded, apology from psychiatrists). I don't know. I wish I could let this stuff go, but I can't. Just . . . can't.