Does it really get much better? When?

POSSIBLY TRIGGERING
It got a little better for me around the 1 and half year mark, and a little better at the three year mark, I'm almost to 7 years and unless I'm thinking about something else, than I'm thinking about cutting. It's like my arms ache to be cut all the time. I'm soooo tired of fighting right now. I know I'm better off without it. I know how much it would hurt my husband. I don't want to have to explain to my child when he grows up what the scars are from. It's just really overwhelming right now. I have this awareness of the bare space on my arms all the time. It use to be mostly that I would just crave the blood, and feeling of release, lately I don't even care about the blood half as much as I care about the sensation on my skin after the cuts have been made. I've never heard of anyone struggle this badly for this long, and have it ever get better.