Hello Mystictrue & Welcome to PC!! You'll find people you have things in common with, learn you're not alone & there's lots of info to benefit from.

So sorry you are struggling right now. As hard as it is to accept & deal with, it's so much better to start treatment when you're young. I wish I'd known sooner, got dx'd later in life & could have saved me many years of turmoil.
I'm sure your pdoc (phychiatrist) informed you but try & be patient on the meds. They can take anywhere from 2wks-2mon to take effect. Please don't be too hard on yourself, it' not like you *chose* any of this.

Having a pdoc is good but a great one is wonderful. Her being an advocate for helping you stay in school & out of hosp is awsome.

Being around other people can be tricky. Ultimately you'll have to decide what is best for you. If you need more alone time, those who really care & at lease try to understand, will stand by you. There's no reason to feel guilty about it, easier said than done but still. I also like my alone time.

Your meds aren't poison or unnatural, they're personal choice, yours!! If you have any concerns with your meds, like not sleeping or whatever, it sounds like you have a very receptive pdoc. Don't shy away, if she feels the need to change something now, you two can make an informed decision.

About the *rant* or venting, that's what PC is here for. Please keep posting & giving updates.

Take good care.
Chaotic