I had been SI free for a little over 3 years until about 3 months ago, when i had a mini - implosion and wound up cutting one night. But during those 3 years I had constant urges, sometimes pretty intense. I really regret cutting this last time, as it's left some permantent scars on my lower left arm that are obviously self-inflicted. I'd avoided much scaring up until that point. But strangely once I had that last episode, I've had very few urges to cut, except maybe 2 or 3 times, but they were pretty intense. One thing that I find is helping me a lot to deal with intense emotions in general, not just stopping cutting, is DBT. I'm in a program now, and it's really intense, but it is helping me a lot with staying with the feelings and just riding them out.

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