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missbelle · May 20, 2012, 06:45 PM

Thanks for sharing all that. I think its good that we put things out there whether thru a journal we write every day, or posting here. Sometimes we see by what we write a possible solution. Sometimes, in looking back we see we are having one louzy day or week. Depression colors everything, and makes our world seem bleak. Remember its the darn depression talking, and not the world or our life. We have an illness. We are not our illness!
I have been very lucky that every med I took worked. I have been on two anti-depressants in 22 years...prozac and then effexor. My prozac lasted 10 years and the rest has been years on effexor. I keep waiting for effexor to run its course but it has not.
I know though that I have a lot of tools to handle my depression. That just comes from years of experience. I do know that I went to al-anon for a long while and I think their slogans, their philosophy etc really helped me to live a normal life

I thinkl like you, that I was depressed way back..definately in my teens but back then there were not too many meds and I actually never knew I was depressed. I just thought everyone felt that way. It was not until prozac that I realized happiness.

It has not been easy all these years but I put one foot in front of the other and I wanted to live. I married, spouse died, I remarried, got divorced, had three kids, two with serious alcohol and drug issues and one dx. as bi-polar....thanks to great genes I guess...

I wanted to give up many, many, times. I was really tired sometimes. Thank God I kept on. I'm happy now and busy. I was a caseworker for the State of Florida and then retired. I don't have a lot of money but I always put my mental health first!!!!!

Hang in there.....I always loved this quote...."Don't give up before the miracle happens."

Thinking of you!!
Dee