my grandfather passed away January 11 06. so its not that recent. i was thinking of email my mom and explaining to her how im feeling lately... I'm pretty sure thats what triggered my depression. becasue right after he died i noticed i was more nervous about things and didnt eat... i lost a total of 10 pounds in one month. but i think I'm getting worse.. bc i cry over nothing some days. I've started eatting normally now... but thank you all for your help and support... my friends don't understand me. and its really hard.