I don't feel pride when I cut but satisfaction. "There, I took care of that now I can go on." When I touch the wound I feel that same sense of satisfaction. I feel a kind of sadness as it starts to fade away. Sigh.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft