It's nice to know that I'm not alone and not some abnormal freak. Thanks. Lately I've been resorting to sleeping pills a lot. It always gets worse at night for me and some nights the idea of living with this craving for the rest of my life seems unbearable. It's hard enough to fall asleep without the cravings, so unless I'm basically half asleep when I go to bed resisting th urges is almost impossible. It seems like such an unrealistic expectation to make it without si. Seriously, how many people would expect an alcoholic to go to bed everynight with a bottle of wine and not relapse. It seems like this neverending cycle. The less sleep I get the more I think about si, the more I think about si the less sleep I get. I just try to wait every few days (so hubby can be on toddler alert), and take a sleeping pill (or occasionally antihistamines) to catch up on sleep, and then repeat.