Hi Rainbow
I'm new to this and still learning. My partner has undiagnosed PTSD or maybe even Complex PTSD. From a partner's perspective it has been a great help to educate and understand the emotions and behavior my partner displays with this debilitating illness.
I'm not sure how much your husband knows about PTSD but it has helped me immensely in trying to support my partner. Perhaps the education may help your husband help you and may ease your feelings of loneliness.
Also....OpenEyes....you have really opened my eyes. I thank you so much for such intimate sharing. You are truly inspirational.