My session last week seemed kind of blah, which normally would make me obsess about my T and what I want from her. For some reason, I only emailed her once, right after my session, and here it is Monday already! I'm not complaining, but it's weird. My brain is in a fog or something--maybe it's the hot weather.

Or maybe it's because she's back in town so I feel secure. Or maybe I really don't care about her so much anymore? Something changed since my minitrip, for the good. I don't know if it will last, of course. Tomorrow's session may bring back my usual frustrations about the T-relationship.

I don't know.....I just feel kinda weird, and don't trust it. Anyone relate?