If anyones been neglected in childhood u know that...u had to do adult stuff when u were a kid...and i feel like.

deficient. and tired.
Cuz...as a kid...I was either alone, or being beaten or coerced by strangers/family to do (other things of adult nature). and when things were good...it was confusing and i didnt knw how to act
so...
I dont understand anything..
I feel incredibly infantile, yet completely grown up at the same time...

I feel because of neglect....I desperately want to feel loved...but at the same time..love is so scary i dont want anything to do with it.


i m sooo scared.