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...My life as I knew it ended when I entered psychiatry....
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im one those people though i never really had a life i can look back on. as issues i deal with started around 11/12 yrs old. i have nothing to compare. its all been one big thing really.
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Huh. That's a bit weird. I suppose on the upside, if they think that way you will maybe be able to go to them with your qualms about psychatric treatment and they will be a bit understanding -- if they're not totally unstable. I hope you find a way to navigate that.  |
they are kindve understanding.
dont get it wrong though. my father is extremely selfsufficient. worked a steady job for over 40 yrs til he got laid off then was able to go back to work with them. hes 65. went to school. has had a few marriages and few kids - til they left him or grew up and supported all with no problem. completely owns everything he has and operates a side business next to working 12-16 hr shifts 5 days a week. 100% owns several homes and properties in numerous states. yes. true. plus more.
..my mother on the other hand. doesnt even compare. shes very dependent. she has no schooling. doesnt work. she seems partly lazy. she has worked..but my dad funded everything. full out
bought, not rented but bought her a commercial building space in a downtown city to run her own business. all this stuff for her business. if i could give her a Dx id say shes like a borderline personality disordered person. classic. shes just very manipulative. i swear shes mental and i mean clinically or severely emotionally unstable. its scary how she thinks nothing is wrong with her. she almost borderlines on sociopathic. im convinced theres severe mental illness in her immediate and long family. but i know not much about either side of my mother or father. i mean...i know of some people here and there..cousins but idk how they are related by blood or what and i only know of 2-3. a couple are bipolar and one has schizophrenia.
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Originally Posted by fishsandwich
You seem like you're in a lot of pain, hun.
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i like to ignore my pain for the most part. skim it a bit but dont go too deep.
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Anyway. How are you today?
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my dad saw my arm all cut up. he says i dont look good. said i look very confused/lost. i was picking apart a dead skunk. heard gunshots today. saw the airplane once today. when i see/hear that stuff i go into a panicked war mode. literally. i mean. i ducked and started running through the woods and across peoples fields/properties. i ran about 20 acres.
...but then i came back. like mentally. idk why i do that...
..you know..i mentioned false memories...i keep having these memories come to me about being in war...but ive never been in the military or anything like that. its weird.