So, I think I'm coming up from the depressed state into a more manic state. I'm so mixed up I am never just one or the other, but usually one is worse than the other. I don't even know if I'm ever normal any more ever. But, I can tell when I'm more one than the other... (and I've been trackign it to figure it out.)

Anyway, today for example my brain just wants me to talk. But I have no one to talk to really. So I feel frustrated by this. I know it means I'm more manic. I can't focus but I just want to talk non-stop... But I don't even know about what because i have so many ideas. If I could write this would be perfect. i could write and then all this talking would be good use.