I just really dont know what to do.
I cant see the college counciller because I've done all I can to see her and still haven't got an appointment.

I just need things that I dont feel I deserve so I dont know how to get them. And I wont know how to get them without having them. So yeah. I just dont know how to keep living really. (not suicidal, just questioning and without much/any will to live).

But thank you all the same. xxxxx