I received some bad news at therapy today. My t told me that the hospital where she works is getting rid of their clinical department. Most likely, her job will end between July 1 and October 1. It's not bad news for her, because she's been wanting to retire soon. Recently she switched from working 5 days a week as an employee, to 3 days a week as a contractor. Today she told me that when her job ends, she will go into private practice --although i don't know if she will seek new clients. She says she does want to follow the clients she has now, and I suspect that when they finish out therapy, she will retire completely.

M t says she'll try to get on my insurance plan, but if she can’t get in as a “preferred” provider, I can't afford switching to a different plan. It would cost us several hundred dollars more per year than what we pay now for insurance. Also, her private practice fee is going to be $125. There's no way I could see her every week at that price. At most, I'd be able to see her 1 or 2 times per month, probably just 1.

Now that these complications are coming up, my h is saying that it might be time for me to start "wrapping things up" in therapy. He said he knows I don't want to, but maybe it is time. Inside, i feel very upset and not at all ready. I've been seeing my t for a long time, but I'm not through all my issues yet. I don't feel ready. I'm scared!

Peaches