I know you feel so alone since it was basically just you and hubby. It was mainly just my mother and I and when she passed, I cried daily for 3 months. I never thought I would stop feeling so lost and alone but eventually my sorrow lessened. You have made it through over 3 weeks now so please hang on. Just take it day by day, hour by hour if you have to. and keep posting as much as you need to. We are all here for you. Also, it doesn't seem as if the antidepressant is working, do you think you should talk with your doctor?