I'm sure you get these kinds of topics everyday, but bear with me.

I suffer from freak moodswings varying from depression to hyperactivity and everything inbetween. I go through at least five of these a day. I'll feel suicidal in the mornings, have a total rebound by noon, and be back in sulk for afternoon tea. I really drive myself crazy, but I can't help myself from feeling this way.

So of course I've looked up a lot of stuff on the net. There's a lot of scary stuff out there, and it's hard not to panic about what you read. I can't diagnose myself, of course, but I do show signs of bipolar disorder. I'll read an artiicle on it and think; that's me, even though I'd rather not be.

Is my story familiar? Do I sound too much like a teenager wanting a mental health problem for attention? I'm nearing my 20th and to be honest I'm terrified of myself and my moods; I cripple my daily life with how I am and over the past year or two things have only gotten worse. I don't know what to do, will doctors take me seriously if I tell them how I am with myself? I'm afraid what might happen if I do nothing, I definitely need help.

If you've read this far and are willing to give me some pointers, advice, cue cards, whatever, thank you!! Now I'm going to go browse through whatever this forum provides on information...though I'd like some personal experiences, if anyone's willing.

It's nice to be able to pour out my problems, even though it's "only" the internet...